I did not manage to go the car lucky draw today... Its so sad... I really really want that car.. to the point of desperation.
I want the extra money.. I need to buy a house... Ouh my...
Its really sad... We do not have enough money... I just need a little bit of money...
Pls God help us... We need to start a new life...
Please give us a chance to start a new life... to build a family...

My stomach still hurts a bit today...
N today is the first day of my cost accounting class.
I hope the teacher is much more better than Mr Bala.
N it seems that he's better... His teachings are much more clearer...
This week I got 3 days class... wow!! Nie blom puasa lage...
For next week... I got 4 days of class...!!!
Tired lah.. dis is all Mr Bala.. he postpone class so many times...
N drag it till the fasting month...

Today I'm feeling more emotional...
Coz my stomach hurts very badly and my body is aching...
I miss him so much... I wish he was here with me...
I hope that 6th June would come very fast and I do not need to endure this much longer...
I love him so much that it hurts me not to be with him everyday...
I was juz thinking this morning how fun it is to be a housewife and we could shop/go market together and we could cook together...
Makes me smile thinking of it...

Today i went out with my fiancee...
After I went to book the cake for our wedding...
Also I was feeling very weak today but I still want to spend time wif him...
Haizzz... I felt so sad when I drop him off at Wdls MRT...
Kau after aku dah salam dia, he do not wanna let go of my hand.
Maybe coz I couldn't bear to part with him... Dats what happens when u love a person too much... So I thot even if I would die tomorrow, I would still be thankful that I had find my soulmate although I would be happier if I could die as his wife.
Then we could even be together in heavens... amin...