This past weeks had been hectic...
Slalu jumpa dia.. kita tk gaduh...
Tapi maybe the impact that his mum gives the red light is affecting me... Us...

N then valentines day.. I bought for him cookies (heart shape box) frm Famous Amos...
I feel kind of sad though...
He shld have make an effort... Even if he do not wanna buy me the watch kan...
He cld but somethg else... not necessarily expensive...
Still smp skrg pon tkda... mcm tkda initiative...
Not that memorable lah dis yr... last yr is the best.

At last jgk may nikah... Tk sangka jodoh dia dh tiba.. Dgn Man jgk...
Walaupon suasana sedih.. nt as expected...
Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat...
Nasib aku ntah bila lage...

Its kind of hectic... n that day we plan for our wedding carefully...
Write it in paper.. spend nearly 2 hrs plus...
I hope he knows hw to deal with his mum.. Mcm mana nk yakinkan his mum...
I hope all is not wasted...
Of course lah aku very very sad kalau his mum doesnt believe in us... In me.
Like aku tk ikhlas love wan...
Yupz... mmg aku muda... but i'm more mature... n we r comfortable with each other...
Aku tk expect wan to be a perfect bf... but he's already a great bf...
So what else do i ask for?
We cld communicate and accommodate each other. Like A Soulmate.

This week... bingit wk with my nenek... slalu tk faham...
I meant makin tua.. u shld be more relax n happy... not stress urself up more kan...
N then tk faham yg aku nie byk benda nk buat before aku 25..
Nie termsk educate wan mcm mana nk ckp dgn mak dia!!!
Stress tau aku... no support... except for frenz... Radea...
Still, bahu yg memikul lage susah...
Then busu n mak busu nk balik... I hav to prepare for the worst & endure...

Hopefully... this friday aft he talk, his mum will give us the green light!!!
Itu ajelah satu2 nya permintaan & doa aku...
Amin!!!

I will not make the same mistakes that you did.........
I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery..........
I will not break the way you did,You fell so hard..........
I've learned the hard way.........
To never let it get that far.....

Because of you... I never stray too far from the sidewalk.....
Because of you... I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt...
Because of you... I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me...
Because of you... I am afraid......................

I lose my way...
And it's not too long before you point it out....
I cannot cry....
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes....
I'm forced to fake.. A smile, a laugh everyday of my life....
My heart can't possibly break....
When it wasn't even whole to start with....

Because of you...
I never stray too far from the sidewalk....
Because of you...
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt...
Because of you... I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me...
Because of you... I am afraid...

I watched you die.. I heard you cry every night in your sleep...
I was so young... You should have known better than to lean on me...
You never thought of anyone else... You just saw your pain...
And now I cry in the middle of the night...
For the same damn thing....

Because of you... I never stray too far from the sidewalk.....
Because of you... I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.
Because of you... I try my hardest just to forget everything.
Because of you... I don't know how to let anyone else in...
Because of you... I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty.
Because of you... I am afraid....
Because of you..........................