Bila ehk nak jadi somebody who's respected?
N not to worry anymore?
You have to earn the respect what...

Bila hidup aku nk jadi lain? Hopefully after marriage lah..
And hope my life will becomes better and not worst.

*Now on enjoy mood coz boss in on holiday! Yay!*
*I wanna do braces!!!*

Kadang2 aku pelik lah dgn diri aku...
Apa lage rahsia Wan yg aku nk korek2 nie?
Apa lage benda buruk yg aku expect nk terkeluar?
Smp kdg2 ntah kat mana2 aku alih2 search kan nama dia...
In hope for what?
For more dirty secrets?
Then what?
I could safely asks for a break up?
Even though it's really in front of my eyes dat i'm the one who's doing the bad thgs in dis r'ship? Is it because I dun feel secure wif him?
So is it my fault or his?

Aku pon tk tau apa yg aku nak nie sebenarnya?
I'm lucky enough to hav a guy who loves me wholeheartedly.
Point blank ckp, he really loves me. The whole world could see dat.
N he won't ever, ever leave me... ever.
So I could live happily ever after n no divorce.
So.. apa lage yg aku nak? Apa lage yg aku tk happy psl dia?
Apa lage yg aku carik?
Lelaki mcm mana yg aku nak?
Jodoh apa yg aku really hope kan dtg?
Org mana yg aku still waiting?

Kalau tk happy, asal aku gi accept dia?
Asal aku memandai ckp aku leh accept duda anak satu?
Apa yg aku nampak in him dat time?
Then.. is it dat i'm lying to myself n to him?
Do I really love him?
Could I bear dissapoint somebody who loves me?
Does he deserves all these after what he's gone thru?
Do I deserve all these after wat I've gone thru?

From young... Or teenagers I had alwayz known that I'm special.
I'm got a different set of thinking from others.
I've alwayz wanted a different kind of life, a different kind of dreams, somthing that is untouchable but I still tried to reach it.

I wanted to touch ppl lives, do something meaningful, not the kind of way normal ppl live their life. But alas, I've got a normal family so I guess it's kind of unreachable and wan's family is also kind of the same with my family so I guess my life would kinda be the same. Unless, if Wan's agree to make some changes in his life with me.

That'll be great isn't it? Hehehe....

I just hope that I will have a happy & meaningful life.
And even though others doesn't believe in me, I will still strive very hard to achieve what I dreamt of.

Last wk had been a bad week... Alwayz crying when I talk to him.
Dunno wats wrong wif me.. Juz felt so dissapointed wif him. Even salah kecik pon boleh jadi besar?? Knape sey.. Susah lah... Rindu mmg tetap rindu especially klau dh tk jumpa for a long long time... Haizz?? Ntahlah...

People alwayz think that I dream too much.
But dere's nothing wrong in dreaming ryte??

Anyway who said that a dream could not become reality??
Who told you that dreams should alwayz be a dream.

I've alwayz seek inspirations from ppl who are successful with their own efforts.
N I inspire to be like them some day.

I hate it when ppl doesn't believe in me. Its the same as my dad, nenek and all the others.