Dear me..

To accept him back or not to accept?

I've got 1 week to think about it. :(

I know that deep in my heart.. I do still love him.

Yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever............

12th July 2007: Met you for the first time after a year and 3 months.

Why do you have to come back into my life??

Why do my heart still beats faster when i met u again after more than a year?

Why do my heart still feel the pain?

Why do the tears still fall from my eyes??

I can't barely sleep last night after the meeting.

Coz i was thinking about you.

* Bila u say u nak we get back together, i was quite shocked.. But in reality, you are still the one i love most. Coz after we broke up, all my r'ships after that is not quite the same as what we ever had.

This is getting worst.. almost everyday i will tend to take taxi to work.. Mcm mana lah nak save duit nie!! Tapi it is so very convenient and i will tend not to be late.. Kan best.. cuma part duit jelah yg tak best!! I really really hope i can kick out this bad habit..

I dun mind the travelling but i hate the bus from boon lay mrt..

#1: No aircon.

#2: Too many foreign workers.

#3: Very slow and too many corners.

#4: Makes me dizzy alwayz.

But.. i know it is still not a reason for me to take taxis!!

Please no more taxis from now on...

Tadi sempat ada org nak knal2 with me before i met my ex, Hasri..
I was so blur2 and confused and scared to meet my ex..
When this one guy holding a helmet approached me...
We didn't talk much coz my ex called ckp dah sampai.. but he did take down my no. lah..
Initially he was curious coz he said that i looked confused.
And i was wondering alone at bt gombak.
Whereas he knows that i live in wdls.
His name? Faizal. Duh. Not that name again..

The sweet part? He actually offered to send me home at night even though i said that i've board the taxi n he's all the way from bishan..
When my own ex didn't even bother to... Haizz.. :(
It upsets me so much...

Today i bought the new 5th Harry Potter movie for 9 tickets for Next Tuesday.. So very the kiasu of me hor? But its also good for family bonding too..
But i can't wait to catch it lah.. Will dream of it tonight.. I'm sure of it!! Hehe..
I wonder what it is like to live in a magical world of magics? Mesti best kan..

See the pic? This is my lovely half sister.. Ummu Aiman.. So cute ryte?

Love her to the max!! Now she's 3 yrs old.

Even though my relationship with my dad n stepmom is not that good, i still love all my 10 siblings to pieces. Esp this cute little gerl. :)

Hmm.. another 1 more week to the SIA air stewardess walk in interview.
Thought of trying my luck. Very the nervous.

I've tried to control my eating, cut and wash my hair, scrub, masque and wash my face and body properly, do body stretching exercise..

But,
I still kept on re-thinking my decisions. Tak tau nak pergi ke tak..

The reasons being:

#1: I dun have an 'A' Levels Cert.
#2: Feels like i'm a bit fat.
#3: I have a bit of acne scars at my back & face.
#4: Dun really know how to swims.
#5: Not really that tall.. only ard 1.60.

The reason why i so suddenly wants this job after so many years i kept it in my heart only:

#1: I want to get out of my house asap since my dad already says so.
#2: The pay will allow me to rent a house asap and save for the course that i wanta and also car license.
#3: Wants to make sumting out of my life.
#4: Interest in travelling.
#5: With that kind of pay, i can afford to give my dad, grandparents, siblings.. etc some money every month.

I'll think again abt my decision.. Hope it'll turn out ryte. :)