Susahlah gini.. Now is already 3.30 pm on a Friday.. and hati aku maseh tak tenang?
Why did i choose this path without thinking!!
Stupid of me... Coz maybe this ex wife is diff frm others...?
And Wan is also diff from others. Maybe coz he doesn't appreciates much that's why i'm feeling this way??
Why did i feel diff when i'm with Joe?? Dia pon ada ex wife jgk....
Now i'm dreading this Sunday. Now, i can't afford not to go coz his mum already invited me! Haizz.. serba salah pulak.....
Nie baru 2nd bro je yg kahwin sey.. nanti in future ada our wedding and his 2 more brothers, mesti dia nk sibuk2 jgk ke dtg??
Now i dun have anymore reasons to avoid her.
Only one sentence for her: "Pls get a life!".
Comment from someone: "Reading from your previous blog, can I safely assume tat u gonna be attached or berkongsi hidup bersama DUDA with anak??? pertaining to the topic, Its individuality thingy... 2nd wife MUST be tolerant and tak moh mudah melatah with wat ever tat gonna happen.. ye lah kekadang bekas janda dier mesti bengkak hati or mata merah kalau tgk ex hubby's new marriage better den last time..
IMPORTANT note: PATIENCE & TRUST.. wen it cums to kids,ex wife or maintanence shit, try not to get involved TOO much... Ada telinga dengar, ada mata melihat, ada mulut diam.. Cuz sumtimes, the other party MAY not like our presence. Unless dah melampau, juz pretend dat u dunno... sumtimes shit happens wen too many hand touch into small personal matters..."
Thanks for the comment... It doesn't really look good doesn't it? Haizz...
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I felt like giving it all up. Serious.
If i give it up today, i won't have to attend the wedding on Sunday.
I'm feeling the jitters after what he had told me.
I'm still feeling it now as I write this blog.
I'm scared of what awaits me of the future.
Everything's in a mess. And i don't think he wld understand.
He's juz a guy. He won't have that many emotions. Unlike me.
I could juz leave him anytime during this past 9 mths of our r'ship like all the heartless women.. but why oh why am i such a nice person??
Serves me right. I do not heed others advise.
I didn't know his ex wife wld be that type. Other ppl would be so embarassed to attend an ex husband's family majlis. Logically.. Other ppl also said so.
The ex wife involvement is definitely not a good news to me...
What am i supposed to do ehk?? Pls tell me what am i supposed to do now??
If i give it up today, i won't have to attend the wedding on Sunday.
I'm feeling the jitters after what he had told me.
I'm still feeling it now as I write this blog.
I'm scared of what awaits me of the future.
Everything's in a mess. And i don't think he wld understand.
He's juz a guy. He won't have that many emotions. Unlike me.
I could juz leave him anytime during this past 9 mths of our r'ship like all the heartless women.. but why oh why am i such a nice person??
Serves me right. I do not heed others advise.
I didn't know his ex wife wld be that type. Other ppl would be so embarassed to attend an ex husband's family majlis. Logically.. Other ppl also said so.
The ex wife involvement is definitely not a good news to me...
What am i supposed to do ehk?? Pls tell me what am i supposed to do now??
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Excerpt from The New Paper:
More Singaporeans are falling in love, out of love, and back in love again.
Why is it so hard to make a marriage last? To find the answer, we visit places that couples may find themselves in the course of their love story.
Our Question: What makes a marriage ticks?
THE MATCHMAKER:
The place --> Where the loveless finds love.
Most often heard phrases --> "Singaporean women are so demanding!"
The Love Guru & his thoughts--> A matchmaker, Mr Janson Ong, said "Marriage fails today would have started failing a few years ago. And when you look at the past 10 yrs, you'll see that it's not an easy time for couples. For some people, its no money, no love. We have to be realistic abt this. So matchmaking is a shortcut.
THE SOLEMNISER:
The place --> A beach, A ballroom, ROM, a place where marriage vows are exchanged - and the fairytale begins.
Most often heard phrases --> "I don't know what it means."
The Love Guru & his thoughts --> A solemniser, Mr Emmanuel, said: "Of the 900 or so couples that i have helped to marry over the past 30 years, abt one quarter of them come in with the wrong expectations.
Most of them do not know what a marriage vows really means, that it is not a vow you make to yourself or to your spouse but to your GOD.
It doesn't matter what religion are u in. A marriage vow is a promise to the supreme in your heart. A marriage is sacred, it's a vow that you should never breaks.
THE GYNAECOLOGIST:
The place --> Where love becomes complete.
Most often heard phrase --> "Is my baby normal?"
The love guru & her thoughts --> A gynaecologist, Dr Cathryn Chan, said "The birth of a baby is a critical time in a relationship.
Babies are "romance intruders" in certain ways. Caring for them may be an anti climax after the romance. To keep the love going strong, couples should not focus all their energy on the baby. They must remember to make time for each other.
But sometimes, the child keep a couple together only because of the responsibility.
So when the child is all grown up, the couple suddenly fimds themselves have grown apart. This is why in future, we see more and more older couples with grown up children divorcing.
THE LAWYERS:
The place --> Where the fairytales end.
Most often heard phrase --> "What happened to the husband/wife that I knew?"
The love guru and their thoughts --> Lawyers, Mr Ahmad said "The fact that there were fewer divorces in the past mean there were happier marriages. Women were less independent then a divorce were a taboo. While Mr Palmer said "Times have changed, and the pressure of modern life can lead to a breakdown in communication."
Mr Ahmad: "That may not seem like a problem when a couple first gets together. They have a meeting of minds and then they get married. The first year of marriage... That is critical. If they can survive it, they are good for another five or six years. These will be busy years when you hve your children, buy a flat or car. During this time, a couple may gradually grow in a different way. But they will only realise this later when thgs settle down & boredom sets in."
Mr Palmer: "Couples must remember that the communications begin before a marriage, not after."
THE FUNERAL DIRECTOR:
The place --> Where the love story ends the way it should - Till death do us apart.
Most often heard phrases --> "I see my husband/wife in my children."
The love guru & his thoughts: Funeral Director, Mr Victor Hoo said "I come in at the end of a beautiful love story and my role is to fill in the emptiness - with the memories of their love. But do we see the good, the bad & the ugly?
People say until death do us apart but what they don't say is that is it a sad parting or a happy parting?
Sometimes, the spouse is so relieved that husband or wife is gone. But i can tell whether a couple's love is true, juz by looking.
And its not from the crying. Its how much attention they pay to the details. Its like they are loving the person as if he/she is still there.
And this is what true love is: "When you can still love someone without his or her physical presence."
More Singaporeans are falling in love, out of love, and back in love again.
Why is it so hard to make a marriage last? To find the answer, we visit places that couples may find themselves in the course of their love story.
Our Question: What makes a marriage ticks?
THE MATCHMAKER:
The place --> Where the loveless finds love.
Most often heard phrases --> "Singaporean women are so demanding!"
The Love Guru & his thoughts--> A matchmaker, Mr Janson Ong, said "Marriage fails today would have started failing a few years ago. And when you look at the past 10 yrs, you'll see that it's not an easy time for couples. For some people, its no money, no love. We have to be realistic abt this. So matchmaking is a shortcut.
THE SOLEMNISER:
The place --> A beach, A ballroom, ROM, a place where marriage vows are exchanged - and the fairytale begins.
Most often heard phrases --> "I don't know what it means."
The Love Guru & his thoughts --> A solemniser, Mr Emmanuel, said: "Of the 900 or so couples that i have helped to marry over the past 30 years, abt one quarter of them come in with the wrong expectations.
Most of them do not know what a marriage vows really means, that it is not a vow you make to yourself or to your spouse but to your GOD.
It doesn't matter what religion are u in. A marriage vow is a promise to the supreme in your heart. A marriage is sacred, it's a vow that you should never breaks.
THE GYNAECOLOGIST:
The place --> Where love becomes complete.
Most often heard phrase --> "Is my baby normal?"
The love guru & her thoughts --> A gynaecologist, Dr Cathryn Chan, said "The birth of a baby is a critical time in a relationship.
Babies are "romance intruders" in certain ways. Caring for them may be an anti climax after the romance. To keep the love going strong, couples should not focus all their energy on the baby. They must remember to make time for each other.
But sometimes, the child keep a couple together only because of the responsibility.
So when the child is all grown up, the couple suddenly fimds themselves have grown apart. This is why in future, we see more and more older couples with grown up children divorcing.
THE LAWYERS:
The place --> Where the fairytales end.
Most often heard phrase --> "What happened to the husband/wife that I knew?"
The love guru and their thoughts --> Lawyers, Mr Ahmad said "The fact that there were fewer divorces in the past mean there were happier marriages. Women were less independent then a divorce were a taboo. While Mr Palmer said "Times have changed, and the pressure of modern life can lead to a breakdown in communication."
Mr Ahmad: "That may not seem like a problem when a couple first gets together. They have a meeting of minds and then they get married. The first year of marriage... That is critical. If they can survive it, they are good for another five or six years. These will be busy years when you hve your children, buy a flat or car. During this time, a couple may gradually grow in a different way. But they will only realise this later when thgs settle down & boredom sets in."
Mr Palmer: "Couples must remember that the communications begin before a marriage, not after."
THE FUNERAL DIRECTOR:
The place --> Where the love story ends the way it should - Till death do us apart.
Most often heard phrases --> "I see my husband/wife in my children."
The love guru & his thoughts: Funeral Director, Mr Victor Hoo said "I come in at the end of a beautiful love story and my role is to fill in the emptiness - with the memories of their love. But do we see the good, the bad & the ugly?
People say until death do us apart but what they don't say is that is it a sad parting or a happy parting?
Sometimes, the spouse is so relieved that husband or wife is gone. But i can tell whether a couple's love is true, juz by looking.
And its not from the crying. Its how much attention they pay to the details. Its like they are loving the person as if he/she is still there.
And this is what true love is: "When you can still love someone without his or her physical presence."
Have you ever really love a woman--Bryan Adams
To really love a woman, To understand her,
You've got to know her deep inside
Hear every thought, See every dream,
And give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman, You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman, You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody, to tell her that it's gonna last forever {2nd}
(She needs somebody, to tell her that you'll always be together)
So tell me have you ever really...really, really ever loved a woman
2nd VERSE To really love a woman, Let her hold you,
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You've got to breathe her, really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
And when you see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman
You've got to give her some faith,
Hold her tight, a little tenderness
You've got to treat her right She will be there for you taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms, You know you really love a woman............
To really love a woman, To understand her,
You've got to know her deep inside
Hear every thought, See every dream,
And give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms,
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman, You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman, You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody, to tell her that it's gonna last forever {2nd}
(She needs somebody, to tell her that you'll always be together)
So tell me have you ever really...really, really ever loved a woman
2nd VERSE To really love a woman, Let her hold you,
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You've got to breathe her, really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
And when you see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman
You've got to give her some faith,
Hold her tight, a little tenderness
You've got to treat her right She will be there for you taking good care of you
You really gotta love your woman And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms, You know you really love a woman............
Haizzz...
I'm still very angry and upset with him.
How could he blame me for something that is not my fault?
And some more I did make an extra effort for it.
No wonder everybody said that he does not acts like a 33 yrs old.
He don't even know how to be responsible to himself.. How could he have/start a family and be responsible to them?
Haizzz...
Now.. I will give him the peace that he wants without me membebel to him or msg2 him yg bkn2.
I think i feel more peaceful today without bothering to think of him and worrying of almost everythg abt him.. checking/calling here & there for him.. planning for him.. doing almost everythg for him.
Maybe he's not the type who appreciates what ppl had done for him but at least have the courtesy to be polite to others.
If things doesn't get better, i do not want to go to his brother's wedding.
Or maybe i'll juz go for a while.. I will see how it goes.
That's it for today... I do not want to think so much anymore.
I will juz let it be..........
Alwayz i felt like i wanted to give up but i have to read the blog below.
I'm still very angry and upset with him.
How could he blame me for something that is not my fault?
And some more I did make an extra effort for it.
No wonder everybody said that he does not acts like a 33 yrs old.
He don't even know how to be responsible to himself.. How could he have/start a family and be responsible to them?
Haizzz...
Now.. I will give him the peace that he wants without me membebel to him or msg2 him yg bkn2.
I think i feel more peaceful today without bothering to think of him and worrying of almost everythg abt him.. checking/calling here & there for him.. planning for him.. doing almost everythg for him.
Maybe he's not the type who appreciates what ppl had done for him but at least have the courtesy to be polite to others.
If things doesn't get better, i do not want to go to his brother's wedding.
Or maybe i'll juz go for a while.. I will see how it goes.
That's it for today... I do not want to think so much anymore.
I will juz let it be..........
Alwayz i felt like i wanted to give up but i have to read the blog below.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Ouh my god......... Really hard to say...
Wan must have really loves me a lot!
Gosh..... I must not forget that all my life no matter what happens.
Although i have to say that i regret knowing Hasri first.
The feelings is hard to let go.. Although i'm trying very very hard. Really.
I must learnt... Coz i'm absolutely happy with Wan (except for some thgs that can't be change) and he loves me a lots more than Hasri does. (I think)
Plus he's gonna be my future husband. :)
I muz remember all these in my heart.
Coz i love Ridzwan Bin Salim a lot & lots. I love him more than i've love anybody else in this world.
Pls remember this alwayz k. Pls don't make him upset again.
Pls do not mention abt breaking up again.
Pls do not brought up the past again.
Pls concentrate only on the wedding & the future.
He have only loves you in his life and he changes everythg for you and he tries hard to pleases you. That's more than enough.
*I must alwayz read this piece of blog whenever i'm upset with him.
Thank God for everything.
Wan must have really loves me a lot!
Gosh..... I must not forget that all my life no matter what happens.
Although i have to say that i regret knowing Hasri first.
The feelings is hard to let go.. Although i'm trying very very hard. Really.
I must learnt... Coz i'm absolutely happy with Wan (except for some thgs that can't be change) and he loves me a lots more than Hasri does. (I think)
Plus he's gonna be my future husband. :)
I muz remember all these in my heart.
Coz i love Ridzwan Bin Salim a lot & lots. I love him more than i've love anybody else in this world.
Pls remember this alwayz k. Pls don't make him upset again.
Pls do not mention abt breaking up again.
Pls do not brought up the past again.
Pls concentrate only on the wedding & the future.
He have only loves you in his life and he changes everythg for you and he tries hard to pleases you. That's more than enough.
*I must alwayz read this piece of blog whenever i'm upset with him.
Thank God for everything.
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