"I read a note my grandma wrote...
Back in 1923... Grandpa kept it in his coat...
And he showed it once to me...
He said boy you might not understand...
But a long long time ago... Grandma's daddy didn't like me none...
But I loved your grandma so... We had this crazy plan to meet...
And run away together... Get married in the first town we came to...
And live forever..........

But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead...
I found this letter and this is what it said...
If you get there before I do... Don't give up on me...
I'll meet you when my chores are through...
I don't know how long I'll be... But I'm not gonna let you down...
Darling wait and see... And between now and then...
Till I see you again... I'll be loving you... Love me...

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away...
In the doorway of the church... When me and grandpa stopped to pray...
I know I'd never seen him cry... All my 15 years...
But as he said these words to her...
His eyes filled up with tears...

If you get there before I do... Don't give up on me...
I'll meet you when my chores are through...
I don't know how long I'll beBut I'm not gonna let you down...
Darling wait and see... And between now and then...
Till I see you again... I'll be loving you... Love me...
Between now and then, till I see you again... I'll be loving you... Love me"

I'm feeling lethargic again!!! I'm having sleepless nights!!!
Why is it that I felt like i'm bored with my life or bored with Wan???
Mayb i wish my life could be more exciting???
Maybe i'm ready to move on to the next phase but Wan still enjoys being in this phase coz he had already been to the next phase last time???
Dats why he juz sits back & relaxed.
I just think its unfair lor... Everythg is unfair to me.

Maybe its wrong of me to have such bad thots...
Ouh! Why am i so evil?? Having bad thots towards his ex wife...
But, u can't expect me to like her right???
She un-intentionally make my life difficult.
I hope that someday she will realized her wrong doings.
I hope one day my heart will be really & completely pure...
But for now, i will still have my evil thots towards her & the first ex.

Smlm is so sad & funny. Bdk yg kecik2 tu semua dahlah msk n bising2 kat bilik aku... Irritated pon ada. Nk buat homework pon tk sempat. N then mcm kesian sey alih2 dh nk dekat kul 11 pm, si akmal tu nangis kuat plak tu kat hall.

Rupanya I think my stepmum marah dia coz he like pukul the baby or sumthg. Then my dad dh gila asyik nk pekik2 je... Tk tau lah apa ntah. Tk tau bdk tu kat mana masa tu. Aku rasa Akmal mayb he's jealous lah or sumthg coz he dpt adek baru. N he dun understand what is baby.

But then terus my sister yg one of the twin amek dia lah n then dukung kasi aku kat dlm bilik.. bila aku dukung, dia stop nangis pulak tapi terus bdk tu terdiam sey.. muka sedih je... Aku kasi dia milo kotak pon tknak.. Slalunya dia lah yg first berebut. Kesian sey.. Then yg aiman dgn syablani asyik tanya je asal dia tk ckp, tk gerak plak tu.. Tknak gerak dari lap aku. N then the face lah.. Like so very sad. Terus mata dia dh ngantuk nk tertido, baru aku suroh syablani kasi kat my dad.

Mayb the age gap too near sgt.. tk patut lah... Bdk tu blom pandai ckp pon.. maseh blom faham pape.
If i become a parent one day, aku will make sure that the age gap between all of them is not too near.

N then Aiman pulak nk tido katil aku.. aku ckp cannot lah, tido kat bilik dia.. Then aku ckp joking2 nanti i kahwin, aku kasi dia lah katil nie.. Pastu dia ckp "Along nk kahwin dgn sape...?" n then aku ckp lah dgn org asal nk sibuk.. then dia ckp "Abeh asal kau dh tknak tido sini? Abeh nk tido kat mana?" Then aku ckp tido kat umah lain lah.. Then terus muka dia semacam sey.. Dia ckp "Alah, asal kau nk tido umah lain? Aku suka kau sey.." Haha.. SO sweet!! Dun worry Aiman, Along won't forget u ever...

Dats why aku ckp there is no pretension is little kids.. Unless adults teaches them the wrong thgs... Haizzz....