Dissapointed in you.

I'm trying to help as a friend..

How can you ask ur gf to do that to ppl?

Ckp ikut sesuka hati je...

Why dun u talk to me instead?

That is so coward of you.

Aft this, i hope dun bother to msg me again.

I've long leave the world of ppl like you & ur gf.

Yeah maybe there's no one to help & protect me now when i'm in need like last time..

But i sure know that God will protect me always.

I hate you. Hate you very much.

I'm doing a favour for you and you dare to talk to me like that!!!!!!!!!

I'm already sick now and you have to make my day more....gosh.......

I muz control myself..

God.. why is life always unfair.

I'm so so sorry dear...

I didn't meant to make you angry...

Now i can't sleep coz i know that u're still angry with me...
:(

Say hello to the girl that I am!
You're gonna have to see through my perspectives.
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am..
And I don't wanna be so damn protected.

There must be another way..
Cause I believe in taking chances..
But who am I to say..
What a girl is to do..
God, I need some answers..
What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel...
But my life has been so overprotected...

I tell 'em what I like.
What I want, What I don't.
But every time I do I stand corrected..
Things that I've been told..
I can't believe what I hear about the world,
I realize.. I'm Overprotected..
There must be another way..
Cause I believe in taking chances..
But who am I to say...
What a girl is to do?
God I need some answers.........

Hmm... I sometimes wonder why...

Why i don't have a blessed life like other ppl?
Like other fortunate children? Somebody like Ayumanje? Haha...

In my 21 years of life.. I could only remember very little moments where i've not been suffering (except when i'm still a baby)... not watching my siblings suffering...
Although sometimes i suffer because of them...
But as an eldest daughter, it's only natural for me to be protective of them...

When i think again, yes.. there are many others much more unfortunate than me......
Like the physically and sexually abused children, children in 3rd world countries...

But.. but..

My dad.. haizz.. dunno what to say lah...

So sian...

So, he wants to claim all/everything? Count every single cents that he has spend on me?
Blame god for giving him such an unwanted unfillial daughter?
Blame himself (I quote) for not killing me when i was a baby?

So.. he wants me to give all my pay to him?
Be such a filial daughter?
Suffer endlessly till the end of my life because of him?

Sometimes i envy ppl with an easygoing, generous dad...
But its not like he's such a bad, bad dad... but... dunno how to explain lor...

Sometimes... I wish my mum is still here with me......

If i could just go far far away from here.........................................................
Could someone just come & take me away??

Saat ku rindu padamu............
Ku seru namamu bertalu.. Rimbunan rindu yang bertemu Menjadi lembaran cintaku.. Ku serah kepadamu..
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