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Kebenaranmu memutus kata...
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Jika kau selam hati ini...
Pastinya engkau kan mengerti...
Betapa sucinya cintaku..
Jangan diragu... Jika kau rasa getarnya...

Debaran kasih cinta yang meronta...
Nilai kasihku padamu.. Cukup berharga..


Now i understand my dear.. why do u kept on listening to this song so much... When i saw the lyrics then i knew hw u're feeling.. I'm so sorry dear...I know that you love me very very much... Maybe you love me so much dat even people ard you noticed dat.. But its hard for me to notice dat when i kept on thinking abt ur mixed up un-normal past.. N ur equally mixed up exs.. I'll be very upset..

Dats why i shld not have mind so much abt ur past even though u're a divorcee. :( Coz when Of cos when u said that i'm too gd for u.. U didn't meant it in a bad way... I meant to forget it of cos but its hard coz u've already told me everythg...

It's normal for couples to go thru ups & downs but i shld not hav think abt breaking up all the time when the thgs are so trivial ryte.. Humans life are already so short.. We should have treasured every single moment together...

Sometimes i do not understand what he's thinking when he did all those thgs which hurts me?

Maybe he felt that it's the normal thgs to do? But for me its not a normal thg to do?

Sometimes i felt that he's being childish... Maybe his daughter is not as childish as he is...

Abt yesterday i was really dissapointed...

It's still okay if he didn't reply my msg that morng.. Maybe he's asleep...

It was still okay if he go to bbdc & didn't update me on anythg...

But when at 8 pm he still have not msg me... I was worried that he will not kept his promise again.

I was fidgeting in class b'coz he still have not msg me whether he's meeting me or not.. Even Hyder & James could see that i'm upset & no mood.. But they juz assume that i'm juz tired. I can't barely concentrate.

N i really dun want him to forget.. Coz i will definitely be angry but at the same time i dun wanna msg or kol him to remind.. Coz i wanna see his determination n efforts himself.

But i still keep on reminding myself that he will be dere. But when i saw dat he's not dere and dere's still no calls or sms-es by 9.45 pm.. Of cos u will be angry & dissapointed ryte...

But i still dun feel like calling him coz i dun want to discover that he's sleeping at home. Furthermore if he's dere, why didn't he call me ryte..

When he called me at 10.15 pm when i'm at Kranji already.. I already suspected 2 thgs but i was so damn angry that i'm scared i will cried inside the train if i picked up the call.

Even after i didn't picked up, dere's no msg of apologizing. I'm not sure maybe he didn't think that was his fault.

I'm not sure what to feel ryte now.. I really dunno why these thgs happened.

Its supposed to teached us somethg ryte?

1) There's a need for couples to communicate.

2) Even though the r'ship is 1 yr or 10 yrs, its still important to make efforts.

3) Realized the mistakes & learnt frm it.

I can't say that i'm not upset now.. Its like an icing in the cake since last Sunday.

I dun think we'll be meeting my auntie dis Sunday. I seriously don't think that u're ready yet.