MEMORIES OF THE PAST: Ina & Joe --> The Pure Love

Truth is the most important thing yg buat aku terpikat dkat Joe is his character.
Taat pegangan agama.. And pandai berkata2..

I can see that he got a real character for a gd husband.. and eventually i fall for him.

Then i got to know that he's a divorcee.. But i dun really mind... Coz he's actually a very gd husband. Maybe that he & his wife got diff views...

We are planning to get married... N then suddenly he creates the trouble and ignores me.

Reason: He doesn't want me to suffer with him!

I was very hurt... Coz i believe that couples should always stick together no matter how tough it is..

N in the end i could see that he's a weak person afterall...

Definitely not the guy that i thought i fall in love with...

Aft this r'ship, i've decided that this will be my LAST ever break up...

MEMORIES OF THE PAST:

From Sept 2006 until now (Break up on Dec 2006) --> Ina & Zali (The wanderer)

Got to know him through a friend.
At first meeting (he brought his fren!), i don't really quite like him.
But he touched my heart with his sweetness and his voice so i accepted him.
At first i was puzzled by his behavior.. kdg2 contact kdg2 tak..
Alasan? Hp tak top up lah, tido umah kwn lah...
Cuma kdg2 aje kalau i turun wdls (coz that time i was staying with my aunt), then i'll meet him at Takraw Court (where most of our dates are).
Ada plak he did asked for a time off...
Then at last masa bln puasa came out the truth................
Yg he actually dah brape bln tak balik umah since he quarell with his dad n he's also not werkg anymore!!

I dunno what to say.. Coz i can't accept a guy like that.
But after i think it through, i feel like it's wrong to ditch ur bf masa dia susah..
Coz afterall when u make that promise to be in a r'ship, susah senang mesti bersama ryte?
So i preservere........... waiting for him to be someone that i hope he'll be..........
And i did manage to persuade him to went back home for Hari Raya..
Tu pon memerlukan byk kesabaran...
Masa tu i asked him to buka sama2... dia buih..
Left me and his frenz aje...
Jalan raya sama2... dia buih..
Left me and his frenz aje...
Mcm matair with frenz pulak!!

Then it happens that an incident happen and we nearly broke up.. Nasib tak jadi..
N he quarell with his dad again and tak balik lage.. kerja pon blom dpt...
But i did a sacrifice that no person can do.. with the kind of family i had.
But it was kinda fun actually.. coz we feels like family...
Amy. Ina. Shasha. Mako. Zali.
and.... not forgetting... cute little Hanis!
Everywhere we're together... 24/7.
Everyone's happy.
But the question on my mind is smp bila nk mcm gini?
I'm the only one werkg.. n its hard to survive with my pay alone...

Amy did say to me yg best kan kalau me n zali get married n they can live together with us...
Its a gd idea but seeing zali's condition now.. i dun think so lah...

At last aft a few happy weeks, he BROKE UP with me.
Reason being?
He dun wanna trouble me anymore n he asked me to find a better guy than him!
I cried two times. One is on the night that he nearly broke up with me masa tgh mkn at 888 Plaza (using my money!) and second is below charley's blk the next day which i cried so hard.. i think my i almost died of sadness!!
I still remember what his fren told me.. "Ina, ina tak payah nak tunggu2 zali.. Zali 5 atau 10 thn akan dtg tetap sama.. Gaknye semua rc kat s'pore dia dah conquer... You just find someone better than him okay.."

N that night i can't sleep and my body was shivering all over.. I dunno why its worst but i just feel the lost coz me and him plus all his frenz are like family already.. N i feel like i'm losing my family members... which is a very hard and sad thing... I just feel that he's so cruel!

N after the break up, i did give him some time n to come n find me but he didn't until 2 months later when i've change into a completely new person.. n after i got to know some things from his frenz... which makes me very angry... That is why i never accepted him back.. Even though his frenz all say that he always asked abt me 24/7. I know that partly he wants me back it's b'coz of his frenz yg ckp "kau bodoh sak tglkan pompuan sebaik ina".. Haha!

Up until now also he had work n quit two jobs in like 5 months time.. Haizz!! N blom balik2 umah lage.. still lepak...
Guess a leopard nvr changes its spots huh... Hee...

At last dapat jgk gaji... After a long wait...
Thks to all the guys at Showtec Communications who have helped me a lot..
Love you all many2... :)

I really think i've got to back up.. Must not spend so much next time!! Pls keep this in ur damn mind.

When times are bad, and you feel that u've got no one to turn to.. you will know who is ur real friend and who is not. I've hav had two betrayals and not including the ones from my family.. I can't believe it that the person most close to me can do this.. :(

The other day i met with my future Prudential manager.. Mr Martin Ho.. which is a very very nice guy.. Like a counsellor u know.. Almost as nice as Abg Fadoli..

He motivates me a lot during that 2 hrs.. Only 2 hrs u know.. N i felt so motivated!

N he asked me to always be positive and to always surround myself with positive ppl.. In the 2 hrs, he could tell that i have lots of probs n comes from a un-homely home.. I nearly cried!

I really hope that i can succeed in this line. I want to prove it to all that i CAN do it!!
Amin.......

Hmm.. Was so damn tired today.. that i felt asleep almost immediately aft i went back from the kendarat.. Imagine lah.. 3000+ guests!!
Tak sempat cuci make up pon.. :(
So dissapointed today.. :(
Dunno what to say lah.. The food was nice though.