The other day... Effendy tegur aku kat msn...
I was kinda shocked actually.. Coz.. i didn't expect him to do that..
Then he said knape aku mcm senyap je lately?
Aku tanya dia hari tu yg pvt no. missed kol tu dia yg kol ke?
He said yupz its him..
Then i said is it me yg senyap or it's him yg layan aku mcm nk taknak even though we've make it very clear that last time both of us have feelings towards each other?
Then dia senyap.
Dia ckp he did that coz he was afraid that we wld have a clash of interest if we ever get together..
What the hell!!
That's a stupid reason lah.. If you really love that person.. U won't hesitate b'coz of a stupid reason like that..
He really reminds me of Hasri.. which makes me more sakit hati..
Then i said that i nvr msg or call him anymore coz i juz got attached..
He said "Ouh, patutlah dah takkol.. hmm.. gd for u lah..."
He said yg dia taknak ganggu aku lage coz takut nanti guy aku marah pulak.. Eleh..
He said one word of advise for me..
Dun ever regret what i've chosen?
I was so pissed off with that sentence that i felt like crying..
So u're doubting my choice of guy?
You are not even fit to give me advise my dear..
I'm glad i've chosen him.. Coz at least i know that he loves me more than you did.
And.. u dun have to be so bitter when u knw that u've lost...
Coz the fact is that at first i dun really have any feelings for Ridzwan but i did have a feeling for you.
And the diff between Ridzwan and you is that, he works hard and makes the effort to win my heart while u, Mr Effendy, just sits ard and wait for a gerl to make the first move?
Haha. Its your lost.

Hmm...
I can't wait to take the Cert for Payroll in January..
I've already submit the application... :)
Its at Singapore Human Resource Institute...
Hope i'm accepted to enrol in the course...
Then i must really work hard to save money.. :)
Hope it will bring me a better future...

Sad & bored...
I kinda missed him a lot!~
Hmpph...

Every day.. I'm getting a little pissed off with my senior..
I dun like this type of person..
Dahlah tkda motivation to upgrade, likes to complaint, dtg lambat, slalu amek leave, kalau ada probs je, sumer org dia nk bilang.. Likes to attract attention..
Haizz...
Almost everythg suroh aku buat..
Then kalau salah, aku pulak yg kene marah...
Unfair kan?
Haizz.. Sabar jelah aku smp aku dpt that cert n kerja yg lage more better.. Hope2 aku boleh tahan.. Amin..

Yesterday.. i was so damn angry with the guys at my workplace..
I meant its okay if u wanna disturb me.. Like a lil sister kan..
But its not okay if u wanna pass sexual comments to me.

And.. I feel like.. Its not damn appropriate to me..
Esp if u're asking for sexual favors... HAiyo!!!!
Do u guys think i'm that cheap??

Hate it!! Benci.. Luckily Ridzwan(my guy) is so understanding... :(
Smlm dah lah strez psl the course then angah call tanya2 psl duit...

Then from morng the guys non-stop came in.. disturb2 me..
That Sarifie guy.. Wow! Stand so close behind me in the copier room and then can ask me some more nak peluk boleh ke tak! Ewww... Abeh.. Nak gula2 yg boleh buat aku keras if he kiss me?? Ewww....
Bobby dahlah 2-3 kali naik atas (pastu nak balik dgn aku plak tu! Uncomfortable tau.. Dahlah dia dah tunang..)

Plus Kamal, Nahar, Mali, Ah cHOy (Eww..), Lionel.. William nasib dia bz smlm kalau tak evry hr nk msk ofis aku.. Azren smlm tk kacau sgt..

Plus the sms from Syaqil (Said alih2 that i owe him a kiss) and a call from that stupid Ridhwan!!! Hate him!!
Got the cheeks to say that aku dah sombong skrg... Duh!!

Dahlah.. Malas nak layan dorg lage!! :(

I just think that.. maybe when u're poor, gullible and clueless..

U'll get look down more often.

I've always known that i can't depend on my family members.

And i don't really understand my aunt.
How much money that she really wants anyway?

I've nvr felt more alone than now.

I think that maybe its better to depend on myself than someone else.
I dunno if i'm being over sensitive again..
But i just felt betrayed & hurt.. Again.. :(