01/01/2008 Tuesday.

I think i must be going crazy now...
Much more crazier than before.

Coz despite of what the ppl ard him are saying abt him & his dark past (which i dunno how to react when hearing the NEWS), i'm still sticking by his side till today...
Maybe it's just that i dun have the heart to tell him.
And i dun wanna brought up the subject to him in case it creates more probs between us that can arise frm this whole damn complicated situation.
So i juz kept quiet & acts extra happy. Haha!

Plus, i've already promised his family to take care of him.. forever?
Now, its the other way around pulak..

So, i have decided to give him another chance for 2008.
Coz maybe life has been unfair towards him.
Maybe he did that thgs coz he's not even aware of the situation.
Maybe he did not even remember what he did in the past...

That's why i'm so happy yesterday coz i was hoping that we can start a new beginning together.
My resolution for 2008 is for me to be happy always, cry lesser & earns lots & lots of money for my future.
I hope that i'm able to love him more than my love towards him now...
Coz i'm definitely convinced that he loves me more than i do. :(

Sometimes when i look at him, i still wonder whether is he really my jodoh?
And why did God pick him out of all as my jodoh?
And as for what i know, everythg happens for a reason...
And if di-takdirkan he will be my jodoh later on & become my husband...
I will have to accept him with all my heart.

I will not write a blog anymore in case if one day he reads it.
Coz i won't have him knowing all my thoughts & what's inside my mind anymore.
It doesn't matter if i'm the one suffering & worrying alone.
No matter what, i must know him more than he knows me.
This blog is supposed to be a private thing.
Unless if there is really a need to then i will write but only abt happy thgs.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!
May the new year brings more happiness & prosperity to this world.