I just dun understand why guys always treat me like i'm the scandal, i'm the timer,
i'm the other women, i'm the symbol of lust.......
Is it because of me? The way i acts?
I don't think so.....
Where else i've always yearn for something called LOVE not LUST!

I have to say that i'm very dissapointed in you.

Coz you've lied to me 3 times (n god noes hw many more?).
Coz you nvr show me an effort at all.
Coz you have shown ur symbol of weakness.
Coz i know that u've still got sumting to hide.
Coz you pretended to love me.

There is no need for you to come back just for you to break my heart all over again. You can spare me all the heartaches..
But i have to say that you've teach me a lot in my life.
Which is not to trust a guy ever again.

Tomorrow will be your birthday.. but i have decided not to send you that stupid card that i had made...........
Whatever it is.. Happy Advance Birthday to you. May u be happy alwayz forever.

Miss Natasha Fazlini...

Heartbroken by a few.
Wanted by many.
Taken by none.
Looking at some.
Still waiting for the one...............

18/07/07 --> Today i'm a bit emotional and cranky coz of what i had just known.. but its ok.. Life still goes on.. I sometimes wonder.. why guys cant just concentrate on one? Why wld they say that they like/love you but still gets to know other gerls? Why must they lie to you everytime? Why must they come back and breaks your heart?

Sometimes... God Breaks Our Spirit To Save Our Soul...
Sometimes... He Breaks Our Heart To Make it Whole...
Sometimes... God Send Us Pain So We Could Be Stronger...
Sometimes... He Send Us Failure So That We Could Be Humble...
Sometimes... God Sends Us Illness So That We Can Take Care Of Ourselves Better... Sometimes... He Takes Sumthing From Away From Us So That We Can Learn The Value Of Everything That He Had Given Us..
Everything happens for a reason. Even though life might be hard and the going get toughs for you.. You must still stand proud and face up to the world.

MEMORIES OF THE PAST:

Sept 2005 --> Ina & Ahmad F (The terror)

My 2nd (So called steady).. haha.. Was a disaster.
Pandai sweet talk aje at fone.. But turns out to be the worst ever.

Likes to threaten gerls with his gangster ways and he even involved my innocent mother (which has passed away)!!
Lasted only for a week.. haha!! Not what i called serious.

After that he did call me back at ask for forgiveness (action2 je rupenye!!) and oleh kerana i believed his sweet words (again!), i did knal2 kan him with my bestfren.. N he did the unforgivable with her!!
Worst guy ever..

• Romance is when your partner wakes up before you in the morning and lets you be the one to sleep that extra 5 mins.
• Romance is getting used to good night kisses.
• Romance is when your heart misses a beat as you wait for him to step out from the arrival hall after his trips.
• Romance is when you anxiously wait for his calls everynight like a teenager.
• Romance is sharing with each other about the day over dinner.
• Romance is when he tries to co-ordinate the colour of his shirt with what you're wearing yet vehemently denies it when asked.
• Love is getting your hands and face all greasy as you whip up a feast for him.
• Love is not relying on one person to be the pillar of strength at all times. Instead he is able to find the strength in you.
• Love is being able to see each other's point of view.
• Love is about talking proudly abt him and his achievements to your family and friends.
• Love is when you become chummy with his friends too.
• Love is when he finally understands your fear of animals/insects and be able to spot it and kills it for you.
• Love is resolving every conflicts before going to bed every night.
• Love is when you feel happy that you've finally found the one.. and spending the rest of your life with him.................

:) Nice and sweet ryte?

BIRTHDAY CARD

Since his birthday is this Saturday..

I dunno what to buy for him and since we are not officially get back together..

I have decided to just make for him a card..

So nice and pretty.. But looks a bit childish lah.. Paisey..

Scared if his mum opens the letter.. Then i think i'll just die!!

I wanna scan and put it here.. but unfortunately i dun have a scanner..

Maybe next time k.. Hehe.. I hope he likes it.

MEMORIES OF THE PAST:

From Nov 2003 --> Azmi & Ina (The Trauma)

This is so called my first stead lah.. Even though its a few weeks aje..
He's actually a nice and handsome guy.
Got to know when i'm werking at my first job at CSC Toa Payoh.

First met him ard September but unfortunately its my last day b4 i went on 1 month leave for my exams.
After i got back, i think he was searching for me.. and we chatted again and exchange no.

Then we get into a r'ship.
Reason why we're not together?
He wants us to get engaged by January and get married on December that year.
Haizz.. AND I'm only 17 sia!!

I'm so traumatized that i asked for a break up..
Scared leh coz i'm not ready to be a wife yet. Furthermore its only my first relationship..

MEMORIES OF THE PAST:

From May 2003 --> Ina & Hedeir (The fairytale)

My first love at first sight.
During jalan raya that year with Tamp bdk pondok.
I follow my best fren, Sarah, with her then bf's frenz..

He also said that he also fall in love at first sight with me.

He said he wanna talk to me.. but he was shy..
Then he said he kept looking at me..
But i never look at him.. even once!!

That is b'coz.. i thought that he was the "action" type of guy lah..
Coz i did hear a lotz abt him even b4 i met him..
But i did find him very2 cute!!

Then 2 months later he at last got my no. and picked up the courage to msg me..
From then, began the story..

Why we're not together?
Coz he just said that to Firzhan that "Our pendirian tak sama".
Full stop.

MEMORIES OF THE PAST:

From Sec 1 to Sec 3 --> Ina & Izad (Just a nick coz he looks like Ezad Exist)

My first crush is a guy from Peicai Secondary.
Slalu naik mrt sama2 at 6.20 am at wdls mrt.
Dunno why i like him.. but maybe b'coz he's always so calm and collected.

My friends pernah sanggup wait for him at AMK mrt masa balik skola just to get his no. for me tau (Sanggup sak kwn2 tak btol aku nie.. smp ez link kene deduct coz we wait for almost 1 hour tapi org yg ditunggu tak muncul2..).. Hehe.. Maybe coz they see me like mcm angau tak psl si Izad nie.. Haha!!

Thats all.