Today was a really really really sad day for me.
And Wan proves that he might not be worth it for me anymore.
Why wld he do that anyway? Playing the mp3 like he doesn't care, tknak layan aku bebual while i'm sadden with the news.
Did he loves doing that? Did he thinks that by doing that I wld love him more?
Abeh knape if he's the one who's angry, he shld drag it long while i'm angry for a short period of time only?
Why does he thinks that his mum likes me and consent to this marriage when
everybody can see that she's not.
Why? Why must this thg be happening to me??
Why does he likes to make me sad? I cried like crazy sia, the worst of all since i've known him, my eyes are swollen, i have a splitting headache...
And he doesnt makes life easier for me, he doesnt share my burden, he juz let it be...
I shld have known it... coz he simply doesnt care abt others.
As long as it does nt affects him, its fine with him... doesnt matter if i'm suffering inside.
Now what am i supposed to do?
Everythg is not going as what i think it shld be... sad... :(

One often wonders what is life all abt.

For me... its all abt happiness.. and love.

These are the two most important thgs in life.

Humans does nt live long... and so long as we are feeling happy and contented far more than sad or hatred or any unpure thots and feelings, at least half of our life, it's gd enough.. so that we could die in peace.

Why shld we think much abt all our probs every single day?

We are only making ourself more unhappy.

Juz let nature take it course.

When you do not have a choice and are force with an unhappy childhood, or are fated to be born into nt so happy/gd families... you shld not let failure brings u down.

And become what you are already born into.. and then let another child be born into the same kind of thg that you went thru.. and it will go all thru generations.


U muz try as u might, to seek the happiness that you really deserve.

Build a new life that you deserve. You might fail once or twice, but do not give up.

Do not care what other ppl think, as long as u, urself believe in what u do.

Live life like you wanted it to be... close one eye to thgs that you do not wish to see or hear.

I believe that with perserverence, there will be a reward.

And I hope that I too cld perservere and be rewarded.

Please have some faith in us and let us seek our own happiness...

I hope everybody will stop it.
Amin.

I must do sumthg to chg my life.
Life is hard and everybody is not supportive of me.
I really hate this life...

I dun wanna be normal. I wanna be outstanding.
I want to be successful.
Pls God.. Help me. Just help me and I promise I will be a gd servant to you.
I will help others.

Dear God...

I didn't meant to feel this way and I didn't even meant to be angry.
I only want him to understand & be responsible.
But I guess that he's not. He did not learn.
Anyway I dun wanna talk to him, say somethg not nice and make him upset.
Coz I knw that even if anythg, he loves me a lot.

I dun really mind he bought the mp3 as long as he knows what he have to do.
Mana lage important kan??
Cld he spend the rest of his life with his mp3?
Still in a few yrs benda tu akan rosak or go out of trend.

If his mum still make excuses, that means dia tk restu and then i will just take it as its not meant to be.