Today is second day raya.. Pagi2 je dah ada problem lage!! Nasib baik lah dorang nk keluar beraya...
Haizzz.. Nasib.. Nasib... I reaallly hate to be in this kind of situation!! Niari ada byk org dtg jgk...
So at least okay sikit.. Bsk dah kerja..Yay.. Yay..! First time aku tk sabar nk dtg balik kerja!! Wan tk dtg umah aku.. so nenek asyik bising je.. Haizz....

Aku dah agak dah yg aku akan sakit hati pada ptg raya...
Everythg is dissapointing since i'm alone at home and that bitch is alwayz attacking me!!! I really2 hate it!!!
Perangai mmg tk berubah2 walaupon umur dah tua n anak dah nk msk dua!!
N she is born to be bossy and she is teaching her daughter to be the same!!
It will go on for generations and generations...
First day raya.. mmg dah ada lots of problems... I am so unhappy!!
I wish that I'm married n could be with Wan.. But Wan is so dissapointing too..
Tk wish aku pon Selamat Hari Raya...
Then I got a flu n I slept while nek uda & family dtg... Haizzz....
Uda & family pon tkda.. It's so boring!!!
The whole day is like a disaster and I did not enjoy it a bit... Nasiblah aku tk amek pape leave this year..

Alhamdullillah... Dpt jgk aku sambut hari raya today...
N dpt jgk aku kasi mak wan kueh seperti yg dijanjikan... This is the hari raya thet aku sambut as wan's fiancee... Hopefully everythg wld went well today... & seterusnya...
Amin...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI 2009 UTK SEMUA!!
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.

Life was hectic these past few days from last week...
Took a lot leave utk buat kueh...
Initially I do not enjoy this coz mak busu balik early from Dubai...
Gosh... buat kueh lage... Aqueelah kacau...
Perangai mmg tk berubah walaupon anak dah nk msk dua...
Still so bossy & infuriating... Aku mmg nk lari umah angah...
Tapi tk sempat dia dah balik siang...
N aku rasa.. dia mmg tk suka kita tgl situ.. haha..
Kau tunggu jelah nxt yr aku beli umah... Tk payah nk bother sumer org lage!!

Monday.. very hectic.. nk abiskan kerja before aku leave... colleagues sumer mcm sial... Dah tau aku puasa n all.. Tapi kasi aku stress... Aku wonder knape ehk aku yg mcm byk buat kerja kat company tu?? Benci.. Esp Sharon and 2nd Joanna.. psl dia kuncu Sharon.

Alhamdullilah.. kueh berjaya siap on time.. sumer dah collect...
Tapi untung tk memadai... On wed dpt pegi geylang.. beli langsir utk bridal room..
Cantik! Now tgl tunggu beli cadar je...
On thurs morning, wan amek aku from work........ so nice of my dear...
Love you... Kdg2 boleh buat aku marah bila malas... tapi i knw dat in watever he do, he will think of me... Then balik nk kena hantar cake to Sharmila (leceh!) and buka seoul garden dgn limah & syimah...
Now tgl masak juadah utk hari raya.. Nasib tk penat sgt.. malas tau kalau org buat kerja n tk tau nk kemas sendiri... boring!! Umur dah lanjut...
N pls jgn nk suroh2 aku... I'm not your maid okay!! Malas nk layan org2 mcm gini...
I think I hate Mak busu tu same like I hate Sharon.
When they are ard, there is some kind of a heavy feeling in my heart.

Today... I got to buka with wan at Swensens.. Skali terjumpa mak andam aku pulak kat situ... Kak Juls...
Then aku pegi beli brg utk bwk to wan's mum... Kesian aku tgk cik terbaring je at sofa...
Aku belikan dia pati ikan haruan n she drank it... ckp terima kasih kat aku...
Makcik & Pakcik is a sweet couple lah.. Cuma kesian anak2 tk brape rapat sgt dgn dorg...
Except for maybe Jamil...
Bpk dia pon ckp dgn aku psl dia nk kasi wan S$10K utk beli kereta...
Aku mmg lah rasa okay.. tapi aku rasa sayang... Kan lebih baik duit S$10K tu buat utk duit kita kahwin... Yg tk tau entah cukup ke tak...
My fiancee's feeling? Juz say that maybe his feelings is void... Kdg2 tk faham lah...
Maybe dia ada some past issues with them...
Hopefully bila dia dah lama2 dgn aku.. his feelings wld be more... nt towards me aje but towards his parents...
Of course I love my fiancee very much no matter what happens...

I had fun yesterday... After the GST seminar is a bit hectic...
Nak terkejar2 ke sana & ke mari... First go bank, n then go admiralty bank...
Then go to sinderella shoes...
Then got to go Kaki Kaki for foot reflex... Its damn painful... my left feet..
Stress sey... Then aku mit Radea.. Arnold dah full...
But the last part was fun.. Dpt jgk mkn Arnolds!! Woohoohoo....
So yummy!! Why ehk?
At last balik nearly kul 11 pm...
Hopefully dis sat dpt keluar dgn wan lage best & meaningful...

Remember those walls I built...

Well, baby they're tumbling down...
And they didn't even put up a fight!
They didn't even make up a sound...
I found a way to let you in...
But I never really had a doubt.

Standing in the light of your halo...
I got my angel now!
It's like I've been awakened...
Every rule I had you breakin'...
It's the risk that I'm takin'...
I ain't never gonna shut you out!

Everywhere I'm looking now...
I'm surrounded by your embrace...
Baby I can see your halo...
You know you're my saving grace...

You're everything I need and more...

It's written all over your face...
Baby I can feel your halo... Pray it won't fade away!

I can feel your halo halo halo... I can see your halo halo halo... I can feel your halo halo... halo... I can see your halo halo halo...

Hit me like a ray of sun.. Burning through my darkest night...
You're the only one that I want...
Think I'm addicted to your light...
I swore I'd never fall again...

But this don't even feel like falling...
Gravity can't forget... To pull me back to the ground again...

Feels like I've been awakened...
Every rule I had you breakin'...
The risk that I'm takin'...
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now...
I'm surrounded by your embrace...

Baby I can see your halo...
You know you're my saving grace!!
You're everything I need and more...
It's written all over your face...
Baby I can feel your halo...
Pray it won't fade away...

I can feel your halo halo halo...
I can see your halo halo halo...
I can feel your halo halo halo...
I can see your halo halo...

Just four simple words from him.. And it can really make my day... :)

I did not manage to go the car lucky draw today... Its so sad... I really really want that car.. to the point of desperation.
I want the extra money.. I need to buy a house... Ouh my...
Its really sad... We do not have enough money... I just need a little bit of money...
Pls God help us... We need to start a new life...
Please give us a chance to start a new life... to build a family...

My stomach still hurts a bit today...
N today is the first day of my cost accounting class.
I hope the teacher is much more better than Mr Bala.
N it seems that he's better... His teachings are much more clearer...
This week I got 3 days class... wow!! Nie blom puasa lage...
For next week... I got 4 days of class...!!!
Tired lah.. dis is all Mr Bala.. he postpone class so many times...
N drag it till the fasting month...

Today I'm feeling more emotional...
Coz my stomach hurts very badly and my body is aching...
I miss him so much... I wish he was here with me...
I hope that 6th June would come very fast and I do not need to endure this much longer...
I love him so much that it hurts me not to be with him everyday...
I was juz thinking this morning how fun it is to be a housewife and we could shop/go market together and we could cook together...
Makes me smile thinking of it...

Today i went out with my fiancee...
After I went to book the cake for our wedding...
Also I was feeling very weak today but I still want to spend time wif him...
Haizzz... I felt so sad when I drop him off at Wdls MRT...
Kau after aku dah salam dia, he do not wanna let go of my hand.
Maybe coz I couldn't bear to part with him... Dats what happens when u love a person too much... So I thot even if I would die tomorrow, I would still be thankful that I had find my soulmate although I would be happier if I could die as his wife.
Then we could even be together in heavens... amin...

Haizzz... Its friday today yet i'm super busy at work...
And I OT at work till 8 pm... nasib dpt naik cab... And I can claim...
Dahlah kepala pening nk muntah coz haven't eat anythg since morning...
Hope my boss will see that i'm the most hardworking of all...

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO SINGAPORE!!!
HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY....

Hi blog....

I think that I always forget you when i'm busy...
I am now thinking abt our house... and also room decor and wedding cake...
Life is pretty busy with this accounts course...
Its making me headache...
Today I went out with him... Happy... Spend time wif him he can release stress...
Go gym (contour express) before meeting him.. Nearby his hse aje...
Aku pelik lah... When did I gain so much weight?!
But very expensive lah... I dun think Wan kasi aku sign up... Haizzz....
Mcm mana nie aku nk lose weight in 6 months?
God pls help me.. Most method doesn't works... Help me lose at least 15 kg... Amin...

Hi blog... I think I always forget you coz i'm happy nowadays... and I'm super2 busy... with accts class n all... But... I wonder why my nenek likes to membebel? Kdg2 stress...
Maybe nowadays young ppl likes to take thgs more easy.. Coz this world is already so stressful... And she likes to stress on most things... Haizz... Must take it lor...

I turn my head to the east...
I don't see nobody by my side...
I turn my head to the west...
Still nobody in sight...
So I turn my head to the North...
Swallow that pill that they call pride...
The old me is dead & gone..
But the new me will be all right.

Oh hey.. I've been travelling on this road too long....
Just trying to find my way back home...
But the old me is dead & gone... Dead & Gone...

*You would know that no matter what.. you only have yourself to depend on n your spouse (provided you must find someone who's really gonna be dere for you..)

Wow.. I'm so happy today...
Just now go out with my fiancee...
Marah pon dah hilang psl dah jumpa...
Then ketawa2... joke around.. kesian dia tk cukup tido...
Then we go eat and watch movie... Obsessed...
then check weight with Jane.. what the fuck.. seems like so fat...
Bored.. tapi still can eat nasi beriyani & ice cream!
What the hell... Haha...
Happy & I miss him a lot...
Maybe dis is what love feels like huh??
Everytime he still looks so cute to me no matter hw tired or busuk or dishevelled or tk terurus he is...
Dats my baby... :)

Another 2 more months n it will be our 2 yrs anniversary... Huhu...

My fiancee is not a bad person...
But he dunno how to amek hati wanita..
I guess its good that he's not a ladies man...
But it makes me depressed. N sad.
Tapi smlm aku really malu dgn remy..
Psl otak aku serabut jadi mcm gitu.... Malu tau!!!

My fiancee is a very cruel person...
He does not love me anymore. He doesn't seems happy to hear my voice.
Just now I called him and he does not even talks.
He likes to sleep and he does not even care anymore...
He does not know hw to make a girl happy.
I kept thinking all these words when i put down the fone with him.
And suddenly.. at home... I got to know that I lost my hp.
Now my fiancee makes me lost my hp. And Remy have to clear up the mess for me and fetch the hp for me.