So upset sey now...

Why did she "buih" me sey?

Thot we are supposed to meet today... :(

Dah lama sey plan.. then at last jadi mcm gini?

Yesterday... Sharon told me not to get married coz her friend is going thru a divorce aft nine months of marriage and their lil baby is just 2 months old.

She said that their differences are too great for them to live together.

SO funny ryte? And the guy got another women already.

Sharon said for what they have the baby in the first place? Pity the baby ryte..

Then got another friend of hers which is divorce and both the parent dun wanna take in their two sons.

Reason coz the wife is lay off frm her job coz she took so many leave to spy on her husband and the husband dun wanna their kids coz he already got another woman.

WOW! Pity their kids kan...

There are so many divorces nowadays... thats why i'm scared to get married.

But if ever my marriage end up in a divorce(choy!), i will continue to be strong.

I'm not even sure whether i should blog abt this or not...

But for sure this will be my last entry on my family.

I can't even describe abt how i feel ryte now?

Sometimes i felt so lost that i almost did something that will lead me to a diff path in life.

I know the feeling of sadness will come and go.

But the hurt that you felt can last you a very long, long time...

For sure, i have believed that ppl who have suffered a lot in life will one day regain their happiness.

The "Hikmah" will come to those who believe in fate.

But, i've waited for a long 12 yrs of pain.. waiting for that a lil bit of happiness to come...

Yeah.. shopping, going out can give you the extra bit of happiness..

But its still not the same as having the love of a COMPLETE family..

And the unconditional pure love of giving but not expecting something in return...

That can only be found in a mother's love.

That's why i remember that i've grown attached to that Hanis gerl.. Zali's fren niece.. Such a cute, pretty lil gerl...

But so pitiful and unwanted by the family members...

Even her own mother doesn't want her.. I ever wonder what kind of mother is she?

You can feel the touched when she asked me whether i could be her mum?

Coz she said that her mum doesn't want her.. Such a poor thing..

I would surely have taken her to live with me if i have my own house.

But now, i can't see her anymore.. Since i'm not with Zali anymore.

I miss her so much!!

I used to believe in that fairytale crap with a happy ending.. which is completely unreasonable.

Which can lead to more broken hearts.

And i've always known that i still have a long way to go in life..

I'm not even sure of the path that i wanna take. That's not very good for a 21 yr old ryte.

If i could, then i wish i could dissapear far, far, far away......... into a land with no sadness.

As if that could ever happen.......

Maybe someone could just come and take me away??