I just dun understand..
Y do u keep viewing my profile?
Does that shows u miss me or just trying to irritates me?
Or ur own guilt is killing u?

I've tried to keep u out of my mind aft i've deleted ur no.
Luckily i didnt store it inside my head..
Or i've probably been msging u again.
N then u will start to act all weird n starts to ignore me.
Which i really hates.

N whenever i can't sleep. I kept thinking abt u.
Thats when i'll start calling random guys.
They must think that i'm a crazy girl.
All guys must think that i'm crazy.
Coz i'm very unpredictable.
Skejap manja, skejap marah, skejap happy, skejap sedih, skejap moody, skejap nak, skejap taknak.

I dun realli understand myself too.
I do want a r'ship but not with the wrong guy.
N since i can't determine which is the right guy,
i would tend to shut myself out from all guys.
Then i will start feeling guilty.
N dats when i will tend to blame him..

But wat makes me sad again was dat...
Its the fasting mth again n Hari Raya is nearing...
I do really hope that i can c'brate Aidilfitri with him this yr..
At that point when we contact back...
But alas...

I can't move on. Coz despite everythg, u are really my everythg.
The few months that i spend with u was probably the happiest moments in all my 21 years...
Which are not a lot btw.
I dunno what to say.
I know that a lot of guys are probably hating me ryte now.
Most of them are probably puzzled with my behavior.
I dunno if i will ever get married later on...

But hopefully if i can start that business, i will definitely work at least 12-16 hrs a day so that not a minute spend will get me thinking abt u.
Even as i'm writing this, my mind is still wandering....

So i guess i'll juz finish it off ryte here...
This is only to let off the burden from my mind.
Not abt reminiscing the past or watever thgs.