I think my life is very difficult now...
I think I could not FOCUS... In times like dis, I wish I had a mum... A perfect family...
But dats not gonna happened...
I really hate the bitches in my life.. Since aku secondary sch.. mesti je ada org nk target aku.. Start from Ustzh Yati to Christine Pizza Hut and Mak Busu..
N as kat tempat kerja.. Aku tk tau who is more bitcher... Joanna or Sharon..
Aku tk sangka aft all these sufferings.. comes a person more viscious that anyone that I've ever met!
Which is Mak Busu... Aku tk sangka........ N she's consider an Aunt!!
What the helll....
I really2 need a house right now.. Desperately seeking...
I hope Tuhan bukakkan aku pintu rezeki seluas-luasnya... Aku tknak forever hidup dlm keadaan sebegini.. Like ppl think that I owe them..
Padahal its not my fault that my fate is like dis!!!
So I have to change my fate...
Aku seboleh bolehnya tknk menumpang kat rumah sesiapa lage...
Its juz my luck dat I got such an un-supportive spouse...
Not a word of kindness or comfort from him........
Now i've realized that I could not depend on him.
In fact, he's the one depending on me... I dunno whether this is called LOVE?
Or is it something else? I'm tired to see that Wan tk pernah usaha utk apa yg dia nak....
I think he is used to ppl giving him wat he wants...
Now my family kind of dun like him.. Coz dia tk pernah nk amek hati family aku...
Now....... what shall I do?
Wan tk pernah rasa apa yg aku rasa selama nie...
Dia mana pernah ada kesusahan.. Cuma ex wife dia je yg buatkan kesusahan dlm hidup dia... Maybe ada hikmah jgk.. Kalau tk, dia tkkan pernah wakes up...
Aku still sayang dia sama.. Cuma maybe.. Ada yg lain...
Aku hope.. Kita kuat utk hadapi ini semua...
Our 2nd year anniversary is also coming... I wonder whether it will make us closer or further away.. Skrg pon dah rasa jauh... coz jarang bebual n jumpa anymore...