I felt like giving it all up. Serious.
If i give it up today, i won't have to attend the wedding on Sunday.
I'm feeling the jitters after what he had told me.
I'm still feeling it now as I write this blog.
I'm scared of what awaits me of the future.
Everything's in a mess. And i don't think he wld understand.
He's juz a guy. He won't have that many emotions. Unlike me.
I could juz leave him anytime during this past 9 mths of our r'ship like all the heartless women.. but why oh why am i such a nice person??
Serves me right. I do not heed others advise.
I didn't know his ex wife wld be that type. Other ppl would be so embarassed to attend an ex husband's family majlis. Logically.. Other ppl also said so.
The ex wife involvement is definitely not a good news to me...
What am i supposed to do ehk?? Pls tell me what am i supposed to do now??